Who I am?

I am the one I loathe
I am the inbetween
the place where people go
when they're left behind
I look beyond my life
and I see nothing worth remembering
nothing worth living for
I am frank
I am the bird unable to fly
whose unusual methods are challenged
whose life is scrutinized
I see the world in monochrome
I know my mind and how it works
I am selfish, my life comes first
it needs the attention I pay it
because otherwise it will end
I could have ruled the world
but I failed to try
I failed to live
I am a thousand things
a thousand words a picture takes
a thousand lies a person makes
but nothing that is pure
the darkness taints the happiness
the forbidden fruit I crave
the darkness to engulf me
to bring me to my grave
what did I do wrong
for life to deal me this ill
where tainted life is canon
and death the only thrill
life has no worth
if you see no point in living
to live without a purpose
is a world that's never giving

I am the end of myself